So this has been an odd stumble in the road. There are two sides to this and the cost on both sides have dramatic consequences. After all this time of work and effort put into all of this, with all the scrimping and struggling financially, I have managed yet again to benefit someone else, and suffer for it, not only in attacks on my character, but in the lack of faithfulness and loyalty from the individual whom I have given so much of my time, blood, and effort.
It seems that no good turn seems to go unpunished. When the people who i help start listening to whispers and discredits of whatever the wind will blow, and not even ask me, or mention their own agenda to me.
At the end of the day, money to me, is not what money is to others. To others it is a goal, a desire, a lust, an acquisition, and an achievement.
To me it is merely a tool, to do better things. The goals, and achievements to me are always about the human spirit, the ability of an individual to come from the ashes, and shine in the sun, and money, in some cases, can help enable that through the purchase of tools such as education, or even a change of wardrobe.
Yet the irony for the world is that money, is about to be capsized. The core of all global civilizations are about to implode, with the merit of achievement for so many, to become without value.
How will the planet react? How will people function with the core of their existence, is devalued and has become worthless. How then will they deem themselves worthy?
I’m at a cross roads here. I’m in a position where I will likely have to lose almost everything that I have helped to achieve in this last 2 years, only to have it taken away through greed and pride, and substance abuses.
This is a difficult situation.
