when i miss you i churn inside,
boiling over white hot,
this chaotic ride
eats my minutes dividing me inside,

the heat moves me to crazy extremes,
with focused inability,
toward the aching need it seems,
wishing you need me,

and yet i never break the rules,
no chances that I’ll give up,
though I sit with the fools,
who know the taste inside that cup,

of trust and faith for the final gift
of what it is we all aspire,
and though opportunity reels
it’s face to mimic you - my desire.

I have to wait aching in patience
for the gift we share in ourselves,
toward the freedom of what
we are and where our heart delves.

don’t run away to close
to taste and not to touch,
i miss you…
is that too much?

don’t run away from us,
don’t walk away from this,
i can’t see you hurt thus,
when i know you miss…

so hold to the touch you know,
receive the gift that God does bestow…

I miss you…

Here is the reference material for my previous blog. To my stalker? Don’t bring a knife to a gunfight, you’re not smart enough, educated enough, or quick enough to ever think that you can take me on. geez, grow up and get cable. At least then you’d have history, and discovery channel. heh

1. ^ Sports historian Bill Murray, quoted by The Sports Factor, “Tie Me Kangaroo Down, Sport” (Radio National, Australian Broadcasting Corporation, May 31, 2002) and Michael Scott Moore, “Naming the Beautiful Game: It’s Called Soccer” (Der Spiegel, June 7, 2006). See also: ICONS Online (no date) “History of Football” and; Professional Football Researchers Association, (no date) “A Freendly Kinde of Fight: The Origins of Football to 1633″. Access date for all references: February 11, 2007.
2. ^ From William Blandowski’s Australien in 142 Photographischen Abbildungen, 1857, (Haddon Library, Faculty of Archaeology and Anthropology, Cambridge)
3. ^ Richard Hakluyt, Voyages in Search of The North-West Passage, University of Adelaide, December 29, 2003
4. ^ Stephen Alsford, FitzStephen’s Description of London, Florilegium Urbanum, April 5, 2006
5. ^ ^{a b c d} Francis Peabody Magoun, 1929, “Football in Medieval England and Middle-English literature” (The American Historical Review, v. 35, No. 1).
6. ^ ^{a b} Online Etymology Dictionary (no date), “football”
7. ^ Vivek Chaudhary, “Who’s the fat bloke in the number eight shirt?” (The Guardian, February 18, 2004.)
8. ^ Anniina Jokinen, Sir Philip Sidney. “A Dialogue Between Two Shepherds” (Luminarium.org, July 2006)
9. ^ Richard Carew. EBook of The Survey of Cornwall. Project Gutenberg. Retrieved on 2007-10-03.
10. ^ International Olympic Academy (I.O.A.) (no date), “Minutes 7th International Post Graduate Seminar on Olympic Studies”
11. ^ John Lord Campbell, The Lives of the Lords Chancellors and Keepers of the Great Seal of England, vol. 2, 1851, p. 412
12. ^ William Maxwell Hetherington, 1856, History of the Westminster Assembly of Divines, Ch.1 (Third Ed.)
13. ^ footballnetwork.org , 2003, “Richard Mulcaster”
14. ^ Francis Willughby, 1660–72, Book of Games
15. ^ ^{a b} Julian Carosi, 2006, “The History of Offside”
16. ^ example of ball handling in early football from English writer William Hone, writing in 1825 or 1826, quotes the social commentator Sir Frederick Morton Eden, regarding “Foot-Ball”, as played at Scone, Scotland:

    The game was this: he who at any time got the ball into his hands, run [sic] with it till overtaken by one of the opposite part; and then, if he could shake himself loose from those on the opposite side who seized him, he run on; if not, he threw the ball from him, unless it was wrested from him by the other party, but no person was allowed to kick it. (William Hone, 1825–26, The Every-Day Book, “February 15.” Access date: March 15, 2007.)

17. ^ Rugby chronology. Museum of Rugby. Retrieved on April 24, 2006.
18. ^ History of the Royal Caledonian Society of Melbourne
19. ^ Soccer Ball World - Early History (Accessed June 9, 2006)
20. ^ The exact name of Mr Lindon is in dispute, as well as the exact timing of the creation of the inflatable bladder. It is known that he created this for both association and rugby footballs. However, sites devoted to football indicate he was known as HJ Lindon, who was actually Richards Lindon’s son, and created the ball in 1862 (ref: Soccer Ball World), whereas rugby sites refer to him as Richard Lindon creating the ball in 1870 (ref: Guardian article). Both agree that his wife died when inflating pig’s bladders. This information originated from web sites which may be unreliable, and the answer may only be found in researching books in central libraries.
21. ^ soccerballworld.com, (no date) “Charles Goodyear’s Soccer Ball” Downloaded 30/11/06.
22. ^ Harvey, Adrian (2005). Football, the First Hundred Years. Routledge, 95–99. ISBN 0415350190.
23. ^ Murphy, Brendan (2007). From Sheffield with Love. Sports Book Limited, 41–43. ISBN 9781899807 56 7.
24. ^ Letter from Tom Wills. MCG website. Retrieved on 2006-07-14.
25. ^ ^{a b} The Origins of Australian Rules Football. MCG website. Retrieved on 2007-06-22.
26. ^ Murphy, Brendan (2007). From Sheffield with Love. Sports Book Limited, 39–41. ISBN 9781899807 56 7.
27. ^ Peter Shortell. Hacking - a history, Cornwall Referees Society, 2 October 2006
28. ^ John Simkin. Ebenezer Cobb Morley, Spartacus Educational. Accessed 22 May 2008
29. ^ Canadian Football Timelines (1860 – present). Football Canada. Retrieved on 2006-12-23.
30. ^ Summers, Mark. The Disability Football Directory.
31. ^ Sean Fagan, Breaking The Codes, RL1908.com, 2006